Feeling Empty

IN one year Just One ...
I get drunk , get hight , get a tatoo , smoke a lot , make a pírceing , cut may hair , dye my hair like twice , start thriouing up , cuting my self , and why ? I i do all this shit ? ... why? Am I so stupid !
Im never proud of my self , when I look in the mirror I cant find a nice person I just find a stupid girl tying to be someone else , but Who Am I now? uh?! ... I use to be nice , I use to fight for my dreams I use to believe in love , in life , in happyness and all i see now are short memories of pa
ssing feelengs ...
I thaught onde day in telling this to my mom , when she find out my coughts but ..she didnt eaven care so .. why should budeer? ´
I feel so lost ... so empthy insight ...